challenge

changes comes challenges.
go me! :D

before i forget the thought...
i've been hearing successes and failures from people i know lately. good news or sad news, i feel inspired to do best for myself. though i know i need to take a few chances on my own this year. i'm taking my time to do what i have to do now. priorities. i can say my focus for this year is my work competency and my family. all things in between today and my future has to go when it needs to. i'm in no hurry. i might lose focus that way. again, go me!

truly, life is a circle. noone stays in the same place forever. it rolls. you have to rock it! \m/

on a sad note... i feel lazy today.. =))

on another note

before i forget.. i want to say that i have something to be happy about today. :)

today is my rest day. and since i feel like today would be dull since there are no plans made, i stuck into that thought.

but i want to take this chance to publicly take it all back, hihi. XD

from almost forever, i finally attended our hospital apostolate. yey! :) since i was diagnosed for ptb3 early june 2010, i cannot go to the hospital anymore for health reasons. but i was cleared, ptb4, last january --God is good! :) but since then, i kept cancelling or am stuck at work or on another schedule. but today, i feel happy i finally had a chance. :) i feel a little rusty. forgive me, the last time i was into the work was about half a year ago. but the feeling is still the same. it always feels good after every work. not all people can have a chance to do this. this is a blessing, i must say. :)

note from the previous post that i was really sad today. but i was reminded that there are always blessings each day. to God i lift my spirit. :)

:-/

i feel stuck.

i've been saying a lot of ideas but i'm going nowhere. my life is just as dull as the pencils in my holder.

dependency...

i'm pretty much depending my plans onto someone. is that good? some might say no. and yes, i feel that way too sometimes. but where is the fun in traveling and having a good time when you do it by yourself? or do sports cheered by no one? or pig-out and there is no one to share it to?

can i do a reset on the plans i have this year on a self-based experience? i'm looking at my 2011 to-do list and all the things i can accomplish by myself is soon to be all checked.

and here i am, doing this blog when what i'm suppose to do is share it to the person/s concerned. but no one is there to listen.

re-sched and off topics

yes, i know.. it had been a while since the last post. i get to write whenever i'm at shift but it seems my shifts are hectic the past weeks. forgive me. :D anyway, why would i explain? no one really reads this. =))

yesterday was the last day for pyromusical. and yes, ...i did not have the chance to watch. boo. or rather, i chose not to watch it even if i can. schedule for me and my oso is good but the money is tight. though money is not a big issue since i bought myself a new pair of shoes yesterday, i guess i did not have the same interest i had with watching pyromusical as i had weeks ago. beats me, i do not know why. and do not blame it to hormones. men always consider that option whenever they cannot understand a woman. geez.

but it goes to show that things planned, things expected, things wanted can change. even if the cards would fall into places, we are still to chose our take.

no regrets though. there is always another chance for a good fireworks display. anyway, thinking how difficult for us to go home last year made me say it's ok. :)


on another note, heard the tragedy that happened to japan a few days back? it is really sad... properties and lives were lost. families were taken, dreams ended for many. i cannot help but feel affected. but all we can do now is hope for the best, pray much more for them and for each other and be optimistic.

optimism can go places. so boo to those people who associate it with 2012. with due respect, i do not have a say with the 2012 prediction. it is a mixed emotion for me to think and discuss so i rather not think about it. i just let it be a reminder for me to seize each mornings and chances. and who can really stop earthquakes and all the natural phenomena? we learned from school that things like that is really a part of the earth's ever changing life and evolution. though the lost is really terrible, we cannot fix our thought in making happenings like this a sign of the end.
forgive me for those opinions i contradict. it is just reallydifficult for me to hear people talk about endigs when chances like this happen. i always believe that tomorrow is a new day. that although chances like this pass, it is not a reason to end. as long as there is life and chances to those who got lucky from the tragedy, today is a beginning.

i still continue to pray for those people who have lost terribly from the japan earthquake. no one deserves it, we know. but who are we to judge Him? He has reasons. we need to take note of that. in His grace, things will be better. optimism. faith.♥

to study(?)

there are signs.. a lot of things and events that happened these past days got me thinking about something i plan to do after two years.

studying..

i dunno. it seems that i need to do it now.. i do not see any problems if i will postpone it for a while but it seems, two years is too long? ugh! messy thought! factors, considerations, life timeline, priorities and will. i need to weigh them all correctly before i can really decide. i need to reflect and pray on this.

God, be my guide. :)