regrets are few

i'm a person that do not really rely on regrets. i had a few in my life. but time healed my pains and i have moved on with them.

but have you ever had that feeling? ..wishing that things were back to what they were?

it is a weird feeling for me. especially that i know i did my best and that i did not regret anything i have done regarding it. i was happy. i was always looking forward to it everyday.

but this feeling i started feeling a few weeks ago made me think about myself. ...had i really done my best? ...have i done right?

i have this feeling of self blame.

i kept praying these past days for myself which i rarely do. --i usually pray for people in my life than for myself. wishing myself the best... *sigh*